♥Monday, December 15, 2008;
11:59 PM
shoot me please . . .
i beg of you. someone, anyone shoot me. i can't take it that i'm always falling into these kind of traps and it seems i'll never get out of it.
i'm not SUPPOSED to:
- have problems cause my "purpose" in life is to help others and not myself
- be sad cause i'm the happy darn bitch who never has problems remember?
- FEEL LIKE AN INCOGNITO IDIOT WHICH I CURRENTLY DO RIGHT NOW!
why does it hurt so bad when your chest has been ripped out so hard, all you want to do is bleed and fucking die?
i can't bring myself to let go despite everything. you've made me so happy. and you've helped me gone through harsh times. but at the same time, you're hurting me.
i hate myself so much right now. how could i let myself fall for someone as good as you?
mew...