♥Monday, December 29, 2008;
5:05 AM
i'm still awake?? O_O"
Vampire Knight is sucking the life out of me. Or maybe I'm just using that as an excuse to hide my sheer PANIC and ANXIETY over later's filming?!!
I don't know what my group's doing. REALLY. We're going around in cicles doing really nothing. Not achieving anything. Haiz... I knew my group was doomed from the start but heck, I'm really not interested in seeing Ms Soo again. So fail me. I don't even know why I'm in media.
Shh. This is not what I want. *>.<*
It's not very obvious but I guess it takes time for me to really know what I want. And now that I've got a glimpse of what I'd like to become, hell, I gotta start working on it right now! =)
Anyway, yesterday was kind of unexpected. I do a lot of things without thinking through. Being random, I always say. I should learn to rejoice in the many unexpected little gifts from heaven. =)
And you...
Just in case you pass by, there were many things I wanted to tell you face to face. Seeing you today, all polished up , well, it was great. I'm sorry for leaving you. I mean, you were in and out so many times, I don't know what I was thinking. But thank heavens you're better. =) It hurt recalling what you became. And it might have been my fault for not taking good care of you. But no matter what, I'll know now and forever, you are one of my greatest friends, my best companion for all evil and the likes. And you're my most trusted. It's just sad that you're leaving me now. But I wish you all the luck in the world. And I pray one day we'll cross paths again. Study hard and make up for lost time. And please, please don't make your Mum cry anymore. She loves you a lot. Have fun abroad and stop mentioning hentai in front of me! The thought of you jerking off is gross! And above all, I love you my friend. I wish I could send you off but I've got school. But I promise, I'll see you later. This time we'll say goodbye the right way.
mew...