♥Wednesday, October 22, 2008;
12:07 AM
omg. what have i done....
I was naive to think that for just one day, i could run from all the stupid problems that aren't supposed to be mine to begin with. i thought i could pretend i don't have problems and that i'm having fun with these awesome people around me, without having a doubt on whether things will get rocky tonight.
but i know, eventually i have to return back to where i left off. and it's much more a terrible sight than it was before. i hate being the eldest. and i hate being the punching bag. and i friggin' hate to be the one who's forced into thinking that one party is right while the other is wrong.
i couldn't return immediately. so i tried to seek refuge at grandma's place. she was saying how she hardly sees me and my other cousins. They're worse though. And she tried to feed me so much as pumping up a blimp with water. i'm expandable but at some point i will burst!
i really had an awesome day with my girls. really sorry for what i had them do. and many thanks for the happy, random moments we had. i really missed that.
Happy 18th Birthday to Wends! Hope she liked her new shoes/sandal and bras!! Yes, we bought her bras!! I bought one too. =P
Thanks Joyce for bothering to care. And MJ2 for understanding.
now, i gotta go work on the Inte-f*cking-grated Project. I don't think sleep will be on my side tonight... thank god for the soccer game. i may not be that lonely....
mew...