5:00 PM

i cracked like an egg colliding with graphite....

it was the most embarrassing time in my life. it sucks more when joselito came in and was like, stuttering even without muttering words.

i'm guilty for not thinking about god during the whole 10mins that it happened. and i was screaming like an idiot in the store room i felt like that girl in the youtube video, screaming at her boyfie in the train. biul punye satu hal kan?

and right now, i just feel like i have no parents. the two adults living with me are like some other tenants, empty and soulless. they don't care how i or my sisters feel. and we're used like some messenger passing messages from one to the other. like whaaa???

i really really want to leave this house when the time comes. just get an apartment, maybe share it with some of my mates and like, NOT come back. i know i'm being a coward by running away, but i cannot take it. it's just so garrrr!!!

i hope school comes quickly and i can at least spend more time at school and not care so much about what happens at home between both of them. thank god for grandma who's always ready to take care of my sisters anytime.

i just hope this is a passing phase between them. i think both are experiencing menopause-like stages...

p.s. i prefer seoul garden at marina square. what do you girls think? =P