9:36 PM

I HATE DADDY TODAY!!!


Okay, so randomly, my aunt asked me if I wanted to watch a movie tonight. Honestly, I wanted to watch Iron Man and What Happens In Vegas. But out of a sudden, someone asked if I wanted to play pool.


Should I watch them movies or play pool? I really do want to play pool. And I'm afraid I don't have time to watch it.

SO HOW???

I'm trying so hard to ignore him. Like right now, I just don't want to look at his face. For once, couldn't he have given me some peace? He always has to rake up the past. Telling me fucking old stories that have rotted in time. Like what the hell does he want from me?? I'm sick and tired of handling his shit. And it feels like being crapped on in the face. Not a very nice picture, huh?
My uncle asked me why I don't want to get a boyfriend. He asked me why I don't let anyone close. I mean like, my cousins have girlfriends. My sis had one though that was history. Okay maybe I was exagerating that part. My sis had LOADS.

I told him what I felt and he was like telling me that all men are not alike and what shit people feed themselves with these days. I'm just at the point where I feel like, there's a phrase for this. Once bitten, twice shy?

I have this tendency to bite you before you bite me. Kind of trying to protect myself. Cause I know what it's like to be a people-pleaser. Hurt me more than I thought it could.


Wah. I just can't wait to die tonight... =.=