10:59 PM

I can't do what you ask me to do. And I can't be what you want me to be. It's impossible. Cause you expect too much, and give too little. I cannot take this.

You always complain of how she's not there. That she doesn't treat you well enough. But when she is there, all you do is pick a fight. You whine and whine some more about how you both are on the rocks.

My say, SHUT THE FUCK UP already. You want to make things better but you're doing things that makes others hate you. That makes ME hate you.

So what if you're always there? So what if we spend more time with you? The fact that you keep whining about how bad things are now, MAKE A CHANGE! Starting with you. I hate it when you say things like we'd never gt through a day without you, or that you're better off dead. Be my guest if you want it so badly!!!

I've been so patient with you. I'm trying to understand. I'm trying to make things better for everyone. I'M THE ONE PICKING UP THE PIECES!

I know this is not something that I can solve, handle or have to do. But it concerns me, it affects me, and most of all, the people I love.

But I'm tired of being the punching bag. I'm tired of being the one who has to act like the adult and think rationally. And I'm tired of pleasing you.

So, I'll just do what I think is right. Yeah, I'll make mistakes. I'll fall. And I'll fall again. But at least I'm doing it out of my own free will.

I'll never trust people like you again. I hate everyone who's just like you. I don't need your kind of people to survive cause I can manage on my own. I'm no longer sorry. I'm just not.


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