1:40 AM

At every moment my eyes are set on yours, I forget to breathe.

At every moment you are next to me, I shiver.

At every moment you touch me, my eyes swell up, brimming in tears.

Why do you cause me so much happiness yet so much heartache? Why are you so near, yet so fucking far?!

I can't say that the world is unfair, because I've come to terms with that. I know what I've been through are lessons learnt in life and every waking moment is a mistake bound to happen. In some ways, it's inevitable to let it all pass. Oh how fucking terrible is that?

A very Happy New Year to All my Chinese friends and those celebrating this event. Well, right now, I don't feel so up to it. Everyone's got their own thing to do and I'm just fucking bored as hell. Supposed to sleep hours ago, but noone else is sleeping, so a bit paiseh? wtf...

Anyway, I can't wait for my mates to drop by later for my sister's birthday party. She'll turn 16 tomorrow. Like finally? We can go watch NC16 movies together!!

Ahh.. The days aren't getting any brighter and I'm just holding on. I know I can. But at some points, I just want to give up and stop struggling; take the easy way out, you know. But then again, fuck all the shnitzels in my fucked up life.

Good night, sweet dreamers. Dream something sweet, enough to turn it into a bleeding nightmare. And Johnny Depp's on the top of my list. =)